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dski "DUDE! you really, Really, REALLY need me to teach you some game." ive slept with 2 women. intra-vaginally, that is. theres been others but not like that. it wasnt anything particular. bella was unfaithful as soon as i fell asleep (sorta directly), she surfed for hours in bed chatting up guys. julia said later "i was afraid i was falling in love with you". she wanted to throw away all her guys on the side just to dedicate herself to me. the problem with julia is that she was so BORING. really, there was nothing to do at her place. she was CLEVER and BORING. and spending my whole life being bored didnt seem like a nice cup o tea. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YvvEFoygXOM no, she didnt get me suicidal like poor simplly guy felt. nietzsche says "see marriage as a long conversation. will you be able to talk to this woman into the old ages?". well, didnt get to talk to julia basically. women all act that way towards me. stranded bluewhales. in bed and in everything else. i stun them with my clevar wyrds. the only exception is the countess. cecilia. but shes the opposite. i can get in 3 words in 3 hours. shes incredible. shes loaded. like 50 million worth in assets easily. i dont care though i dont mind. many women that have fancied have been upper class. i still miss moira. i was gonna send her a magazine i made. with love songs and cool stuff. wishing she would come visit me. if you didnt know i cant move my legs anymore. cant even sit in a wheelchair. so im bedbound. and no one visits me here. when i started working out (i can do it 16 hours per day if i feel like it) i actually invited some women online. one came. britta. she was a looker. 60s girl. they always say "boomer" and "generation x" and now "generation alpha". but why not the kids born in the 60s? because they are the children of the revolution. cant fool em. shed never used a bra anyway (they used to burn em in the 70s), was old but her boobs were beautiful through her stunning blue dress with birds on. anyway, now that ive worked out even more i just gotta tell you, theres no point in sex. the only point is turning into a parent. so im against all sorts of birth control. even condoms actually. and they dont work on me. the condom just slides off since my foreskin is so soft. and that yeah. you can check dickpick dot dreamwidth dot org. im not gonna directly link it since dickpic sending is beyond me (maybe). my dicksize is 1/10th of what it used to be. if i get a boner it feels like a shrimp basically. so even if i could get punani here i couldnt do anything with it. and i do get punani here. this housing (mixed with an elderly home and prison and mental ward) has 1 chick they specially placed here that goes around sleeping with everyone. shes called monica. but she just pisses me off. but like https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Abrn8aVQ76Q the offspring says "its sorta hard when shes ready to go". i dont need pussy anymore. i have 2 kids. its over. i dont like impressing chicks anymore. almost all left me. more than 99% still do. tracey stayed though. shes amazing. shes a solarpunk. so she loves technology as much as nature. shes actually a hydrologist. yeah. ever heard of that? water scientist. shes been with me for 20 years. i sorta abandoned her, and she was in misery for a long time, then she reached out to me on my darkhalo fansite when her daughter was 2 years old (shes generation alpha). i noticed the email ½ year later on an abandoned email address (literally, no one ever emails me, have never, since i started on the internet in 1995). well. she had a horrible husband. she stopped self harming then not much later found jeff. anyway, ive built up her whole family. effie is a genious now she used to pick fight with kids in KINDERGARTEN. chris is amazing, an ultraiintellectual that is a goatherder (???!!!) that has been published in new york times and london times or whatever its called. they just got married 💚😁 jeff has straightened up and has his own fucking threatre! 😲 some years ago he even got a job as official repairman for fender. but now he works on the theathre fulltime. he used to be a tatuist and barely even got any pay. just smoked pot all day long when at home. and tracey has a better job now doing field studies didnt pay a lot shes actually a statistican. and how did i build them up? through just talking. shes never given up on me. 100s of chicks like i said have, even bella. they get what they want, then they choose an average copy. weve never met. shes american, im swedish. long ago i figured i would move to america or her to sweden, just to make it better for effie and get her away from her guy. im sure id quickly just turned into effie. no tracey isnt immaculate. she used to have LUPUS. look up meds on that, its the worst fucking illness in the world. rheuthmatic blood cancer, and gives you basically every mental illness in the whole world. but shes incredibly strong. when i started working out more (ive done 1 million bicep curls the last 2 years) she started as well, she even got a personal trainer. shes real buff now looks amazing. shes finally happy. im not but im sorta always that. everything is relative. i get pissed off now but its ok when left to my own devices im calm already. i was just playing algorithm chosen music on youtube yesterday and playing ultima online outlands, and vlogging about it, and it just felt like the best day of my life. i dont mind really. im 5x taurus so i like taking it easy. yes im a cow 🐮 moo! i like chewing grass and uh. yeah. chewing grass. and saying MOO. and chewing more grass. and gettin' milked for all im worth over and over again and them not being appreciating it. im also 4x sagitarius. aka horse. im a unicorn. im holy. you cant destroy something holy. holiness is truth and it glows from the heart. im so proud of tracey and her family. im proud of my grandma that she stopped the incessant drinking. shes a great artist now she does excibits even alone. shes made more than 1000 freeweaves. she mirrors peoples souls in it. just incredible. im proud of my real mom sara. shes actually an archaologist in southern usa now. shes a hyperintellctual. she loves books but also movies and music. she has a big library of all 3. and that my friend is the ultimate. pride. its just a feeling or insight for a moment, but it lasts the whole way through. whenever ive done 1 of my 10k photoshops for around 5 hours each, i get so proud afterwards. that ive created something unique, original, detailed. 10k times. they cant take that away from you. ive also written for 60k hours since 2002. i write in new genres still, ones im not even sure what theyre called. ive even written farsi like poems. look it up. its iranian. heavily inspired by being high on saffron. yeah i was once 1 time ever. it really wasnt that particular. like i said i like drinking a lot. of milk orange juice and water. thats it. not beer or any stimulant. and i like junkfood a lot. and also sandwiches. and homemade food. my grandparents always did good ones. so one day i thought "i want to study gastronomy at university". anyway i only lasted 1 term it was incredibly tough, but my grandpa said several times afterwards since i used to do 3 course meals when i got home again all teh time "you learnt so much there", and he wasnt really heavy on compliments. yeah i guess im proud of my grandpa as well. you know what he said once? "what a class journey ive done. kids where i lived used to boffa (breath in the air) THINNER". yeah. you can get paintthinner like 10 litres for almost nothing and it will surely last long enough to kill 10k kids or even more. he was really good with economy. and you know what my grandma does now? she inherited also like 2 million sek 200k$ from her mom when she died some year ago, she just wastes it all. barely any money left. she surely got 5 million for the house. shes having "fun" with em. just pure white trash personality. i dunno if sara or karin are proud of themselves. sara doesnt really act weak shes hardcore. she dresses really classy and has a way with words. her starsign is snake. my real father daniel is a dragon. hes really a dream i understand why she fell for him. hes got good sense of humour, passionate voice, can use violence if its needed, hes a chilled rastafari, can cry openly so he still has a heart, he says insightful things wants to improve the world, eventhough hes got enough bitcoin to fly to mars. and hes a fucking fisherman in ghana now. when the swedish nazi party got bigger (theyre like 20% of votes now) he moved back since "in africa im always welcome". anyway i just woke up ive been sleeping a lot. amazing dream i dont remember it but lots of cool things happened. spirit says "starhawthorne" was in it. lol weird now shes trying to talk to me. anyway i love writing more than anything else. and listening to a good youtube playlist or the algorithm. and having several litres of tapwater by my side. and drinking directly from a milk or orange juice package. like gulping it in the morning like 7 decilitres. 70% of the contents. yum 😋i also love vegan cuisine i dont think i have the receptor for umami. meat really tastes like nothing. real meat not mickey ds like pink slime burgers. anyway dunno if you can parse all this but i just love writing more than anything else. the psychiatric systems cyanide poisoning has faded so my arms and hands dont feel strained might do later in the day though. i dont take 12 mackor and 8 fikabröd per day anymore. i can survive on like 500 calories. just a cheeze sandwich and some yoghurt in a day, thats it. anyway

dski do you ever work out anything? fredrik saras main guy used to do it every day since he was a tween. he looked like an infinite teen. no wrinkles or age looks eventhough he was close to 50. do you go for promenades? lift weights? (training) bike? calisthinetics? if not i recommend it. start simple easy like walk to work instead of taking the bus. or just walk to the next waiting stage for the bus. just 10 mins then increase to 20 then an hour. the most ive ever walked was segersjö to södertälje. i didnt time it but it was surely 4-5-6 hours. my arm started hurting a little towards the end but thats it. i just woke up in the middle of the night and didnt feel like staying at home with the kids bothering me soon. it was in the middle of summer as well so eventhough it was 3 after midnight it was bright. anyway, take care of yourself, sound mind sound body as they say. and take care of others. dont just try to impress and be funny. i was just like you before. try to be insightful as well. good comedy is always that. first you build up then you make them lose their smile in second from a deep truth. check out özz nöjen hes kurdish-swedish hes done amazing stand up shows. also magnus betner hes a god he inventing touring as a stand up comedian. and david chapelle search on "sprinkle coke on him" on youtube before he sold out to mtv, he stopped being funny then. anyway i could say more ill surely have to chop this up the most. the only free speech site out there is dreamwidth dot org, they allows 300k chars per post and you can easily string bigger posts together if youre writing an online novel or an essay or lecture or podcast transcript with simple html. 1.5k here is pathetic, i can go past that in 15 mins and ive surely written for longer than that now lol. anyway have a good one, even if you dont change youre amazing and 1 of a kind. "the meaning of life isnt to find yourself, its to create yourself" - sunhiausa. anyway thats about it. as i said i havent taken anything when writing this. for breakfast i had 1 glass of saft (like uncarbonated soda from concentrate) 1 glass of oboy (cold cocomilk) and 2 knäckebröd (hard bread, 110% rye, water and some salt) with leverpastej (liverpaté but not the luxurious thing, it has a special taste) and smörgåsgurka (like cut up pickles that are sweet) on it. thats it. i didnt wake up paranoid, i did not have ocd, i did not have anxiety, i did not have panic. its just me. seasiepie ♒ im 16x pisces. i just want every fish in the sea to simma lugnt, swim carefully.